The beauty of the ugly

I hardly blog nowadays cause I don't have PC/laptop with me at Ampang ( and maybe cause I'm lazy too). Social media like Instagram, Facebook and twitter make it much easier to update bout your daily life or keeping memory online =) . Upload picture with happy caption, done. Write deep quote with only 140 characters, done. Literally like 20 seconds(exclude time of filtering the pictures LOL). Blog? Might take 20minutes.

Back to this post's title. I really need to post this one btw.

1. The ugly.

I had the worst nightmare so far that I can remember. I was trapped in a moving train with a number of people at night. We were finding ways to stop the train. A killer was inside the train who looks like the dementors from Harry Potter. He was actually looking/ trying to get me and would kill anyone he encountered.

I was quite brave at first cause I wasn't there alone. Somehow, the train stopped and all of us was rushing to run from the killer. Suddenly, I feel the 'responsibility to stop him from killing innocent people since he's looking for me. Instead of running far away from the train, I turn to face him, with only a big papan in my hand. I was freaking out. " I dont want to do this but I have to stop him" was what actually in my mind.  He saw me standing there alone, others..I dont know where, might been few km from where the killer saw me. The guy run/fly to me with incredible speed. My hands held the papan tightly, ready to swing even I dont know if it will make him stop. He was so near! Near me and ready to hurt me. I screamed and woke up!

I was in my room in Melaka. It's dark, the door was opened. I was still in fear, it feels super real. Even now, I can still feel the fear from last night. I sat on my bed, trying to remember and recite any surah/zikr but I couldn't. I tried to lie down and go back to sleep but it stuck in my head. Maybe it is the fear that he might turn up in my dream again. "I need my mom. Is she sleeping with my sisters? I hope not". Went to living room, hoping Mak fell asleep there. She was. I lied next to her and fast asleep.

2. The beauty of it?

The feeling that I still need my mom, the feeling that you need someone to hold on in your life. I thought I've grown up, independent and can live on my own. I was wrong though. I love you, Mak =')

End of 2016

This feels surreal. I would like to conclude that 2016 is the best year for me yet. I just realised during my birthday month (October) that I was totally blessed. Of course, truly loves it when people surpised me with cakes, candles, balloons and celebration. So many birthday suprises that made me realise that I'm surrounded by nice and wonderful people. Alhamdulillah.
It's not about the celebration, it's about the wishes and duas. I look back what happened this year, so many good things. New friends, new people...slowly become your good friends. And I travelled few times. Visit Egypt and Bangkok.
Of course, there challenges that teach me to be a tougher and better person in shaa Allah.

May Allah makes my year of 2017 better than 2016 and a better me. Aminnn.

Day 1

Going to see the king. He will decide if I'm going to the battlefield or not. I'm by myself. I can decide if I don't want to fight.

I can choose my cheerleaders.  They gonna support me.

I hope this post will end here. No more day 2 or 3. Hoping that it is just me..Over thinking.

Sunday Blues

Everytime balik Melaka for the weekend...mesti sedih ari ahad. Sebab dah nak kena balik KL...

Plus, a presentation is coming this Wednesday. Fine! Will take 2 days leave. Tak nak masuk office seminggu! So that I can spend more time in Melaka. Teehee.

Every department is different. I wish Fixed Income dept. is care enough about us, MTs. But to think again, do I care enough about learning in Fixed Income? Nak complain org, kena tgk diri sendiri gak. Kadang2 complain, lecturers ajar tapi kita tak faham. So, we need to learn more by ourselves. Kalau the other side susah nak improve, kita improve diri kita pulak.

My blues will start on Sunday instead of Monday everytime balik Melaka. T_T

Going somewhere

Suddenly, I want to go somewhere, a beautiful place.

I miss enjoying green scenery, blue sky, beaches. It is nearly 2 years ago... at Switzerland, when I was on Europe Tour. The mountains, the river, the grass, chilly air....

So, I'm thinking of going somewhere near, don't like going somewhere too far away.
Island!!

Please pray for me so that I can go for a vacation..
Leaves insyaAllah takde hal, still got 22 days =p

Budget? Depends on location, insyaAllah cukup. Dalam Malaysia je la.
Company? Ada yang interested nak join. Hihi







*If I want to go for a vacation, I need to save my money. BUT... I just spent a lot tadi at JJ Ayer Keroh =_=
Jangan menyesal Wahidah =D

Tercabar

Salam....

Today is a free day! I don't know what to do today cause I'm stuck in KL this CNY holiday. Plus, I want to attend a friend's wedding at Taman Melati tomorrow.

So, what I did today?

1) went to Times Square to change my mobile network. I only spent 30minutes there.

2) went to AEON Maluri to explore the department store for the first time. Found few working clothes! Yeay! (Aeon got CNY Sales btw).   Keep window shopping for few hours, cause I need to buy a wedding gift for my friend tomorrow.

Survey electronic goods(fund from A07Bians)

I don't know how this happened but suddenly a gorgeous heels captured my heart. It's still expensive even after 50% less.  Almost buy it even I noticed that price. Aigooo... I wasn't myself. Belek kasut tu mmg lama giler....Luckily I escaped from my `nafsu'. A test for me today...


Tak patut bawak debit card bila jalan2.patut bawak cash je. By hook or by crook, mmg tak dpt beli luxury goods if bawak limited cash. LOL! *But seriously...*

A wedding

A good friend of mine just got married this morning! Happy for her! But I miss her already =')

I've known her for almost 6 years! We still keep in touch (takde la setahun dua tak contact,tetibe jumpa balik hehe) How crazy she is, how weird she is, I can't describe it haha

Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly. Ayam ala KFC is one of the dishes. Totally hot stuff! Bukan budak je ek, kami yang dewasa pun rembat gak. Kesian orang tu, asyik kena refill je. Haha.( Bride's fevourite food tuuu)

One great thing about a wedding, it unites people. 

Family members will help everything they could so that the event for 'raja sehari' will run smoothly like royalty event. =D

Relatives will come together to help the event, cooking, decorating etc especially if it is a 'rewang' event ;) Including the neighbours

Teachers will see how their used-to-be-little-students is now a grown up person and is taking responsibility to build a family.

My category in this case: Friends will come together to wish all the best to the bride & grooms. Plus, keeping up each other about current status(dah nak kawin?)hehe. Chatting for 3 hours. Siap buat statement, sape2 nak kawin lepas ni, kne ade booth tuk A07B because we keep looking for table/place to accommodate 10 of us. Under the tree, dining table for bride & groom, home entrance =_= Cheqot/Iqah, statement anda salah  bila awak kata, "orang makan je pun, then balik. buat ape khemah banyak2 " LOL

May Allah bless the couple always =)

Oh, please do not gossiping. Someone buat statement at the wedding just now, "Orang bersosial dengan mengumpat kot". How I wish it's totally a lie.

Ada live band at the wedding, lagu Mawi, Search semua keluar. It's super loud. Nak borak pon susah haha. Suddenly, bila baca doa, dengar kumat-kamit je. Maybe anyone yang baca doa lepas ni, can try to project your voice more. Pernah jugak pergi wedding, clear sangat apa yang dia doakan. =)